As I sit down to write this first blog post, I cannot help but feel overwhelmed with excitement to embark on this journey of self-discovery with you! I don’t know about you, but so far, my journey of/to self-discovery has been a mixture of messy, complex, and enlightening experiences that keep me challenged every day. It has been a wild process of navigating every. little. thing. that happens from day-to-day and trying to find balance in my chaotically imbalanced life.
Up until the past couple of months, my coping mechanism to the stress of being a 24 year-old Grad School student, juggling mental illness, a number of jobs, relationships, a social life (and the list goes on) was basically as follows: get overwhelmed, think about making changes, make changes for a day, give up, feel guilty for giving up, ignore, repeat. As a self-proclaimed procrastinator, my instinct is simply to “wait it out” until I can no longer “wait it out”. While this has *somehow* proven effective in certain cases (read: fellow academics, let’s be honest), in many situations it has stopped me from reaching my full potential. Unfortunately, I am just coming to terms with this now. But I finally feel ready, I think that it is the perfect time to *actually* deal with everything that has been piling up these past 24 years.
Now I’m not here to preach the idea of “you create your own happiness”- because quite frankly, that is bullshit. As someone who has always struggled with mental health issues, who has worked as an ally to marginalized populations, and who studies the social world, I have come to understand all too well how untrue that statement can be for many people. Instead, what I am doing, is choosing to embark on a journey of accountability, autonomy, mindfulness, and vulnerability, to reach a goal of finding balance in all spheres of my own social and individual world.
Which brings me to my last note: I want your help! These journeys are not easy, and the search for any transformative change can be uncomfortable, at times lonely, and (as I know too well) easy to procrastinate. Despite the natural instinct to keep all emotional journeys to myself, I would like to embark on this journey as a ‘community’; and to share with you my on-going tips-and-tricks, struggles, experiences, and new adventures that may also help you on your own journey to finding balance and the ‘self’ (kind of like Eat, Pray, Love but for the broke college student).